” Bits Here Pieces There”

August 2, 2015

Finally cooler days are in store in the next couple of days which are in the form of storms. This is a pleasant change from the humdrum days past. Always good for changing the scenery! This month will be the tenth year I have been scripting thoughts in form of blogs. Recalling in August in 2005 was five days of very heavy rain. So had and took the opportunity to put thoughts and constructive as it was coming straight out of my brain without any preparation. Seemed and therefore seems easier this way. Not many changes just to the point. Just taped the draft slightly as my son showed me how to do that so that it wouldn’t disappear as previously. As I begin this blog I feel trapped because of my inability to drive a car. I have simply walked everywhere which seems fine to my standards. I feel stressed because of lack of money all the time. Always trying and succeeding to keep my head above water which I say nightly prayers which is a ritual each night. In fact all my adult life I have been able to manage money having the fact that it is vital to life and the least I have the better I am with it. Couldn’t imagine having a lot of it really wouldn’t know what to do with it and besides it has never been in the cards. So why start at this stage of life. I really worry about my son’s health and wanting somehow to have his kidneys better. Or have a kidney transplant for him. One of my many observations is when I ask someone a question they devise some many unnecessary questions and bombard me with endless why this and why that which has nothing to do with the initial question. And what is very nerve racking is their judging attitude. Another saga is in general sense people just love to hear their own voices as these individuals just ramble on without taking a breath. I never like drama either so when I begin to feel comfortable with someone which I only have a few; I find opening up with someone is difficult. I am in some respects a clam hard to crack: the less comfortable or uneasy I feel the tighter I get. I feel that once I open up then it is better to correspond and I am more worried about a reaction from others. Although the slogan is ” for every action there is a reaction. I also feel that my faith is very important to me although I respect others of being different venues. I just feel what is important to myself. As my son works overnight last night was the only night I could actually sleep and could sleep soundly. Normally I don’t. Am a newshound and wanting and having to know what is going on worldwide mainly than locally. Have been looking for other apartments other places too. Somewhere that is cheaper and been online to see where these places are. Seems the southern part of the US is cheaper, simply for the lower standard of living. Have been there never want to go backward only forward. Would love to go to a city which has trains and a better type of transportation, much easier to motivate and not so spread out. Not really asking for much. Never required much either. If others who are close to me are happy than I am too. If not well I’m not. Have always been motivated by others. Thought of others first then myself. My Social Security check stays the same however rent and utilities continue and will continue to rise. This is just the basic necessities nothing more.
My son has medicine to get which is vital to his health. Has doctor appointments which aren’t covered because he is working a full time job. This state doesn’t have federal funds like most normally. The EBT card was revoked because again my son is working a full time job. I’m not eligible for it because I will share the food with him as he did with me in the past. So the woman said ” Go to a food bank” Treating me like I was homeless! So both of us get food when we can. He brings it home from work and I get what we both need when I get paid. Its called survival. We don’t live to eat: we eat to live!
This will be my only blog this month as will probably have to downsize big time: which I truly hope isn’t the case. Aussi comme si comme ca!!!!

“Observances”

July 26, 2015

While going up the street near my apartment I happen to come across this fine feathered friend who gently prances softly on the hard pavement not barely lifting up his thin brightly orange feet. Just glides along smoothly. His color is quite unusual as being dark grey on his head as his wings are magnificent with bright white designs. He spreads his wings and he is off not even to have a glance at the surface below. He is unusual as he flies not in flight as other birds seems to do. This creature isn’t far from the ground at all: in fact he is eye level to myself. I would think that this particular species of bird is a pigeon however not the size as most pigeons which are near the lakes or the oceans. Those seem far larger. This pigeon seems to have lost weight and one day it was in the road and I had hoped it wouldn’t be hit by these fast going cars which travel at mock speed not watching for those in the way. So each day in the early morning as the sun has already arose I see this pigeon just coming and of course it stops and I look in amazement. He seems not to be hesitant as I speak softly as he listens. He has a calming effect on me. As I go on my way toward the corner and turn I am bombarded with refuse along the path. People have an apathy ignorance on the verge of sloth. Each time I see refuse on the ground it is horrid. There are refuse cans in eyes view yet people just won’t use them. There should be a forced fine for litter. It has gotten out of hand. In fact when I take my trash to the dumpster I walk to the closest entrance and I pick up a diet mountain dew empty can and take it with me. It is on my way and it is always in the same place on top of where the mail is delivered to the apartments. I have pick it up countless times I have lost count yet can’t just leave it stay. If I do it bothers me. There have been beautiful clouds today and I see them separate and have the patience to watch them close and come together as the bright blue sky disappears away from the clouds. What a magnificent sight. Could watch clouds endlessly. Never tire of them especially as these become darker and there is a grayish tint to them. It again leaves a serene feeling.

” Interlocking Interlude”

July 20, 2015

A magical yet in my case a third time which better be a charm. Usually I blog at night however this time it is happening in the morning which I would think that at anytime would be good while the oven is hot to strike a mood of progressive constructive dialogue. Years ago my creative son, Andre wrote a play in a notebook. It hasn’t been published yet as ” Perdition’s Epilogue” Book One is on amazon. He is editing the sequel and writing another book “Anytown” This play is so original and timeless, actually up to date even in todays standards. The characters jump out from the page as being lifelike. These individuals are in real life sometimes threatening circumstances: as their life up to this point is very stressful. These characters are as follows: Zen who is in the mainstream is very intellectual, dresses conservatively has liberal ideas: John who is Zen’s childhood friend is very idealistic has some heated although friendly debates with Zen. There are John’s parents who are always self judging and putting John down. There is Nicole who is apprehensive of all her friends because of being abused by her parents. Katrina who is somewhat wayward, young fifteen years of age. So Zen and John try to mentor her which is to no avail however both of them are credited for their efforts. These are the main characters and the secondary characters are a couple of cops who are constantly harassing these kids and making a game of it. Although the kids are far more intelligent and see right through the shananigans. Then there is Skeet who is in his mid-forties who is appears to be in and out of the saga. Has a reputation of being a recluse and very hard get along with everybody concerned and therefore clashes with all the personalities. Doesn’t have any respect for himself and the kids dislike Skeet intensively however never verbly utter any words such as those. Undoubtingly there are harrowing situations in the middle of this play yet each character has a surprising happy ending with exception of Nicole who turns up in a very sad way!
Hopefully at some point this notably inventive play will be published so the world may appreciate the intentions of natural true talent

“Forest From The Trees”

July 15, 2015

Nearly twenty minutes till two in the morning, brings a new day and this month is believably half over. How remarkable is that. My son, Andre is working another overnight by himself at a local restaurant nearby and so guess what it gives me time to have constructive thinking. My observance is many things yet those items either don’t deserve a response or there is a comment to be had simply because it isn’t necessary. However must say that if a person asks a question the self judging population has to retort in a way that is typical; such as ‘why’. Or this self absorbing individuals will give a point of view which is again typical. This happens far too often that people are unaware of their verbal responses. Called the several churches to see if for some reason these organizations could aid financially. The first two said “No” without a reason. Though the third gave the same answer and gave a legit reason say that all the churches weren’t aiding because of the drug problem which is over the top and couldn’t although they really wanted to aid however didn’t have the funds. The problem was so overwhelming. I thought the third church had real courage to let someone know instead of ignoring it. They want to be part of the solution. I thought that was a positive act. I then phoned the senior center and got a very engaging lady that did her research and referred me to a couple of agencies which had 1 8oo numbers. Asked me for some personal information then after giving me some rigamole said ” that the agency was unable to aid. I was honest and was astonished by their rudeness their utter disregard for a fellow human being. I won’t dignify the name of the agency simply because they don’t deserve air play. Our fellow human beings refuse to see the forest from trees and unfortunately group all together. How sad is that?

” A Symbol”

July 10, 2015

Up and down topside is my stomach now that is a secret no one telling ok. May by the end of this blog it will settle down oh by the way it is to that point. This joyous July three days in the month came my older son Ian’s birthday. He is forty two years of age. Remarkable. Recalling those many years ago I was patiently awaiting to the forefront to withdraw a sizable amount of cash to give it to the hospital in Indianapolis. Again on his birthday I was again standing in a bank to pay the rent money. As I was waiting for the clerk to count out the amount I glanced at the clock noting that it is quarter till eleven and same time it was 42 years ago. How ironic. Might say it is a symbol. Also Ian was three weeks late coming into this world. Had gone through a happy nine months of joy and then waiting three more weeks shy of another week into another month. Actually I was so overwhelmed this didn’t matter. Not even having not an iota of insurance. What mattered most was that my son was healthy, which in fact he was and is. Having insurance is for the selective few. Never had it so that’s the way the cookie crumbles. My younger son hasn’t got insurance either and therefore it is most difficult when his medical condition comes into play. I myself don’t even have any insurance and have never had it. I worry about my younger son more because of this amyloid both his kidney and he is here with me. My older son Ian and his family is in Jordan. Ian was born in 73 and that is my age! That too is a symbol. Have to say this blog is short and sweet!!!

” Yet Still Another”

June 27, 2015

The overnight hours brings a true sense of relevancy. Being a genuine movie buff with particular cinemas in mind comes a mesmerizing documentary” What Happened, Miss Simone? viewed with my good friend yesterday. It is my intent to just simply wait for movies that are worthwhile instead of wasting time just seeing anything that comes down the path just for the sake of it, for time is too precious to waste and furthermore not a living soul has the capacity to turn back time and relive the past to make the time worth it. All the controversy of Whole Foods which was negative overshadows the fact of the owner which has a novel idea and in fact puts it into practice. With the great abundance of food wasted daily. He has had some food which he sells at rock bottom prices to those people who can’t afford food because of the high expense. These people are the working poor. These food products are fine and edible yet at the same time these are just on the verge of being discarded. So instead of doing that this owner takes this food and stores it in a place which is a grocery store which is called” The Daily Table”. The working poor which consists of 60% of the population doesn’t want and will never take a handout! That in fact is one of many of my rules. It’s easy to say to a person” So why don’t you go to a food bank if you are hungry” It is easy to say that statement to another person just because that person isn’t doing that. That person is giving advice to deaf ears. So people for the most part should mind their own business just take a hold of their own affairs and not just give advice without being asked. Now here is a story which is hard to make short because I have the tendency to go in many directions so I will try to condense this story. It was a week ago tomorrow which is a timeframe. The sun was shining and it was a beautiful cheery day. Had my mind focused on giving a birthday present to my friend and in fact it was my second cousin Sara’s birthday on the same day. As I was walking on the pavement I happened to see a woman with two small dogs. She wasn’t paying any attention to these dogs on the leashes as she was just running her mouth yakking away to some gentleman and monopolizing the conversation. She saying fifty words as he was trying to be polite. As I approached I recall stopping, waiting patiently to let me pass as there is a small passageway. I was watching and paying full attention. As I walked forward there was one of the leashes out of the way. I looked and went to pass not trying to be rude. I tumbled over the leash and hit face first on the pavement. I was stunned for a moment and then the woman was crowding me and gentleman was very concerned and asked me if I would perhaps like to sit down. I mentioned thanks just I was fine, as I gathered up my glasses which were scratched on the right lens, which made those glasses useless. Oh I immediately gathered up the birthday present which was fine that made me feel good inside. Now I have been wearing these other glasses which I prefer the others more attractive specs and I like those better than these. However the angels were around me once again.

” Another”

June 17, 2015

The cooler days brought plenty of rain these pass few days which is a pleasant relief from the heat of the day. The Stanley Cup Playoff is history as the Chicago Blackhawks took glory in the final six games. What was disappointing yet not typical was when the Cup was raised above the head of the start of many players, the local station stopped the proceedings in midstream and the local news came on which to everyone’s mind was news worthy except for me and of course to a few others. In basketball the playoffs were gladly awarded to the Golden State Warriors of Oakland which was deservedly so. Speaking of this state, wonderful governor Walker is running for president of the U.S. This man doesn’t even have a college education and boosts about the fact. There was an article in the Washington Post about this governor stating that he wanted teacher’s and the union to separate and it supposedly was successful in this state he is taking it nationwide. What is ridiculous is the expression divide and conquer however he actually believes this to be true. Another fact is that if a person is receiving ebt for some legitimate reason. The person will be tested for illegal drugs just because that person is receiving food stamps. This governor is taking away the badger care for those who work. Therefore the only way a person who may receive badger care is not to work or have any job at all. If for instance a person winds up in the hospital with absolutely not a drop of insurance to pay for the stay it would be catastrophic. To make matters worse this governor refused any kind of federal money and has taken the state badger care in its place. While on the subject of insurance another secret is that I myself don’t have any dental insurance and recalling when I came to this state: had to pay a dentist $800 for a total of a few visits. The reason for going to the dentist initially is to have a checkup and the dentist who is very reliable found gum disease which was serious to the health of my teeth and could be detrimental if not treated in other words a person could loose all their teeth. Fortunately it was caught in time yet was stage two. Once a person has periodontal disease it should be checked periodically and never overlooked this. Also while there, had a bridge put in on the right side of the month. Fortunately it has lasted five years and counting hopefully. Still making ends meet which is extremely important!

” A Secret”

June 7, 2015

An absolutely wonderful birthday just within a short time ago, was very memorable! Got loads of cards, well wishes and surprises which are the best kind! One in particular was sent by my older son which was delectable fruit edibles. Had three inflatable colorful balloons which one of them expressed Happy Birthday! My younger son published his book” Perdition’s Epilogue Book 1 on Amazon! This book has sold many copies and it is dedicated to me! How beautiful is this, such a tender gesture. He is working on the Book 2 which is dedicated to his late Dad! This particular book is especially good too. His writing flows so naturally as he has such unique talent. Another birthday was June 2nd which was my late sister, Christine’s. I only wished that I had known her better: although am pleased that I knew her at all. I was eight years older than she. Another birthday that is arriving very soon is my wonderful dear cousin, Mike’s who I recall to be very caring the last time I saw him five years ago that he pursed is lips in a sign of a kiss as I was riding away. I so love him always. Yet another birthday that is arriving shortly after my dear cousin’s is my very good friend Alynn’s which is the 21st. Still yet another birthday which comes on the 26th is my sweet cousin’s Claudia on the father’s side of the family. In fact it is noticeable that I had an engaging very long conversation which lasted nearly 3 hours with her today. A secret that is told to you is the best kind if you keep it to yourself which I will take many of them to my grave ( afterlife). Many of them have been told to me in confidentiality. A secret which I want to say which I am very proud is that I haven’t been to a medical doctor for a checkup since a year after my younger son was born. In my way of thinking is that people run to the doctor for anything and everything. Those people have insurance. So not a big deal. The only medical doctor I have is Doctor Michael B. Shapiro. He will be the only doctor in my life. This is fine with me. As the expression goes”, beg, borrow and steal to make ends meet” each month, in a technical sense. Not a charity case either, by any sense of the imagination. Just know in my heart what is right and wrong and that is what matters.

” A Trend “

May 13, 2015

Nearly one in the morning on this frosty night in May, with endless thoughts to script isn’t unusual at least for myself. My son Andre is working the entire night by himself which in fact he likes that and he is scheduled that way all week. Guess the restaurant saves on labor. Trends come and go whether it be in fashion or anything else in the American society. Most trends aren’t worth mentioning, however this particular trend needs to be addressed. Read an article just the day before yesterday anchored by the Pew Exchange. It states the trend of geographic sections in the country whether it being the Midwest, the south, the northeast or the west. The article was quite disturbing as it dealt with religion and its decline from 2007 as to now. The so-called none which as I understood as meaning people who had no affiliation with any type of religion whatsoever. These none in a plural sense had not or didn’t want any form of a Creator or Supreme Being! Some people don’t go to church yet they do pray to the heavens above for peace solace and inner warmth. However these individuals don’t have any desire to do even that. These same persons are good as other are. Their goodness doesn’t overshadow their being genuinely kind. This trend of none in the plural is on the rise dramatically. They were born of different faiths whether it being Catholics, an array of Protestants, including Evangelicals. The section of the country which has the highest percentage of none is the west. This trend comes on the heels of the upcoming national election. A question comes to mind. Does this have anything to do with the Patriot Act which will be renewed in a few day by the US Congress? My contention is that I’ve always thought that religion should be a private matter! Voting should be the same. No one should tell another to vote a certain way. It is clearly up to that individual and others should never interfere with that process. However in America if you happen to be a type of religion the voters will take full advantage of that as in years past the voting technique will do their best to gear that person in their own direction. That shouldn’t be. However it is unfortunately.

” A Wing And A Prayer”

May 12, 2015

Time to unleash some needed thoughts taking a day off from being glued to the computer while doing other necessary things in the apartment. Yes the Stanley Cups Playoffs are still in high gear and the New York Rangers are going for a seventh game against the Caps! Both teams play tomorrow in the evening. The teams are narrowing down a slight. Yesterday I put a heavy picture on the wall: put it in a different place. This particular photo weighs a lot. First I had to find a nail from another place taking that on out of the wall. Then I had to get a knife and pounded the nail into the back of the wood frame then of course that didn’t work so I had to lengthen to steel then again put the nail into the wall. Then putting the photo on the wall again was a great accomplishment. Felt great, also rearranged the photos that are on the wall. This was done while my son was a work. Actually didn’t take along as I thought it would be. Before doing this I cleaned my entire apartment starting with taking a good deal of dirt off the wooden air fan. Actually I like being alone doing constructive things, keeping busy. Might say at this point my essence of doing this blog is amazing for the noise is beyond maddening. At other times the apartment is quiet while I blog. This is the fifth month of the year and haven’t gone to church at this point. Still have the desire yet the churches aren’t in walking distance. Speaking of churches a small group of Madison churches will open their doors tomorrow in the wake of the news conference announcing the district attorney on the possibility on the indictment of the police officer shooting a young teen victim. There has been numerous shootings involving police officers. Now it is quiet here. Did pretty well in concentration. Proud of myself. Read today that there are nearly 4000 guns being traced to Georgia being used on New York Island. I think that when a crime is committed whichever type it is and there is a gun involved. The trace of these guns should be of greater concern than already is. Not a thought of that comes into play. It is a real shame. No one thinks a bit about this aspect. The gun dealer should be put out of business. It is liken to drug dealers who are too numerous. This isn’t mentioned at all. The thought is the question of Why? Has to be a reason. May is a great month for celebrations!


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