Nearly one in the morning on this frosty night in May, with endless thoughts to script isn’t unusual at least for myself. My son Andre is working the entire night by himself which in fact he likes that and he is scheduled that way all week. Guess the restaurant saves on labor. Trends come and go whether it be in fashion or anything else in the American society. Most trends aren’t worth mentioning, however this particular trend needs to be addressed. Read an article just the day before yesterday anchored by the Pew Exchange. It states the trend of geographic sections in the country whether it being the Midwest, the south, the northeast or the west. The article was quite disturbing as it dealt with religion and its decline from 2007 as to now. The so-called none which as I understood as meaning people who had no affiliation with any type of religion whatsoever. These none in a plural sense had not or didn’t want any form of a Creator or Supreme Being! Some people don’t go to church yet they do pray to the heavens above for peace solace and inner warmth. However these individuals don’t have any desire to do even that. These same persons are good as other are. Their goodness doesn’t overshadow their being genuinely kind. This trend of none in the plural is on the rise dramatically. They were born of different faiths whether it being Catholics, an array of Protestants, including Evangelicals. The section of the country which has the highest percentage of none is the west. This trend comes on the heels of the upcoming national election. A question comes to mind. Does this have anything to do with the Patriot Act which will be renewed in a few day by the US Congress? My contention is that I’ve always thought that religion should be a private matter! Voting should be the same. No one should tell another to vote a certain way. It is clearly up to that individual and others should never interfere with that process. However in America if you happen to be a type of religion the voters will take full advantage of that as in years past the voting technique will do their best to gear that person in their own direction. That shouldn’t be. However it is unfortunately.
Time to unleash some needed thoughts taking a day off from being glued to the computer while doing other necessary things in the apartment. Yes the Stanley Cups Playoffs are still in high gear and the New York Rangers are going for a seventh game against the Caps! Both teams play tomorrow in the evening. The teams are narrowing down a slight. Yesterday I put a heavy picture on the wall: put it in a different place. This particular photo weighs a lot. First I had to find a nail from another place taking that on out of the wall. Then I had to get a knife and pounded the nail into the back of the wood frame then of course that didn’t work so I had to lengthen to steel then again put the nail into the wall. Then putting the photo on the wall again was a great accomplishment. Felt great, also rearranged the photos that are on the wall. This was done while my son was a work. Actually didn’t take along as I thought it would be. Before doing this I cleaned my entire apartment starting with taking a good deal of dirt off the wooden air fan. Actually I like being alone doing constructive things, keeping busy. Might say at this point my essence of doing this blog is amazing for the noise is beyond maddening. At other times the apartment is quiet while I blog. This is the fifth month of the year and haven’t gone to church at this point. Still have the desire yet the churches aren’t in walking distance. Speaking of churches a small group of Madison churches will open their doors tomorrow in the wake of the news conference announcing the district attorney on the possibility on the indictment of the police officer shooting a young teen victim. There has been numerous shootings involving police officers. Now it is quiet here. Did pretty well in concentration. Proud of myself. Read today that there are nearly 4000 guns being traced to Georgia being used on New York Island. I think that when a crime is committed whichever type it is and there is a gun involved. The trace of these guns should be of greater concern than already is. Not a thought of that comes into play. It is a real shame. No one thinks a bit about this aspect. The gun dealer should be put out of business. It is liken to drug dealers who are too numerous. This isn’t mentioned at all. The thought is the question of Why? Has to be a reason. May is a great month for celebrations!
Glued to the Hockey Playoffs, both on the television and the computer watching each team advance ahead. What an exhilarating time. Love the sport. Although I want certain teams to take the Cup: the process is exciting and grueling to watch. Watching several movies these days to the betterment of some. Pick and choose these at random and so enjoying this to the fullest. Celebrations filled this month which makes it better as to the weather favoring in a pleasant direction. Warm sunny days and cooler nights a perfect combination. Strapped with responsibilities as normal as all are, these prior mentioned activities are a breath of fresh air. If one day in the near future, with money to spare my choice would be to go to New York for a visit. Being a native New Yorker, my thoughts are of New York dreaming. I just love the state. It has everything you could imagine and then some. Sounding like someone who doesn’t want to shout for joy yet inwardly am when I think of that place. Would one day want to live there again however don’t know just where yet. There are so many places available in which to choose. You can take the person out of the place yet never take the place out of the person. This will be short and sweet.
Spring, a variety of patterns become this fond season. Just recently while walking at night with the streetlights bright along with the illuminating parking lights: it was raining more like sleeting with the wind blowing and the rain was moving rapidly sideways. It was truly a sight as I was rushing to the grocery store. Everything is a balancing act, whether it being a conversation with someone, or anything else imaginable. How fortunate is that, with careful knowhow to be precisely correct, and it is most difficult to do at certain times to be exact. It is an art something that is natural and never learned. Speaking with a friend who is elderly who lives in Alabama, she was saying in the long course of chatting that she had made a doctor’s appointment yet had to make it later that sooner. She has many health issues and rightfully so, with no fault of her own it is just the way it is being that she has lived many years. Was speaking to someone else as his doctor was retiring and he needed an appointment couldn’t make it immediately as he has to wait a month or so. There just isn’t enough doctors and ones who are excellent aren’t in demand. It doesn’t matter whether you have insurance or not the wait is just the same regardless. This is an outrage. The price of medicines are astronomical. That too is very wrong. There shouldn’t be a choice of paying rent, utilities food and medicine if you need it. The first three are vital to the human existence. There is a huge difference between what a person needs and their wants. Some are a means of mere survival. It is terrible to be force to make a choice of basic necessity and medicine which if you need that should be at a discounted price or near to nothing as at least a person can afford it. This is when it has to be repeatedly consumed daily. Health insurance should be discounted so the person is able to obtain it especially if needed. Knowing that nothing is free and if it is there is something wrong with that scenario. However it should be affordable as medicine if needed. Some people don’t have any life or health insurance because of the cost. I might add this blogger is one of a many, simply for the fact the cost is unreachable. There are many worries and that is unfortunately on the back burner. In fact that shouldn’t be the case, as many more are in the same plight. I think more of others before myself, thinking if others who are close to me are ok than that will make me ok. That is reality in my estimation.
Spring is chronologically here yet not in reality as the air is cold and raining. First of all have to say that I was blogging this post and it was highlighted five times and managed to save it yet after blogging 374 words I managed to lose it. My son looked in the recycled bin couldn’t find it. When that occurred I simply remained calm ate four starbursts two jolly ranchers before proceeding to recall the contents. My intention is to simply try to make these writings perfect or near to it so each time this happens I am yelling at the computer as it becomes nerve raking. Now I shall begin to recall what I lost. Put my memory to the another ultimate test. Feels like autumn now. Cold at night, needing the heat for warmth. Recently viewed” The Imitation Game” It is thought provoking, sensitive. Highly recommended. Been listening to doo-wop music, 90’s alternative while still recalling melodies familiar and progressive. Been condensing items, so a non cluttering becomes a habit. Recently went to Dr. Shapiro. After a battery of eye tests as usual. He greets me and calls me ‘Gracie’. There are only a few who may refer to me by that name. It is a sign of affection to me only by a few not all. As the doctor is checking my eyes through a scope both of us start chatting away about family. Asks it if I’ve taken a trip to the East Coast and while is uttering those words I’m thinking how wonderful it would be again live there. I tell him about my son writing a book that is being sold on Amazon” Perdition’s Epilogue” Book 1. And that Andre is working on Book 2. He says I must be so proud of him. My thought again to that statement is how much. I tell him that Andre had mrsa and Dr. Shapiro said he comes in contact with that daily. I also say that my son has been diagnosed with Amyloidosis and that it has settled in his kidneys. My doctor is very familiar with amyloids. Tells me that he operates on persons who have or have had them. I tell him that amyloids are found in the heart, liver and other vital organs. He mentions that amyloids are found in the eyes also. I have been going to Dr. Shapiro for nine years. On one of those my visits he mentioned that I would be his patient till he retires. I mention to him that I went to another eye doctor for 25 years. He already knew that because he had the all my records. At my first visit with Dr. Shapiro I was apprehensive of course. At this initial visit he said that’ you have the best attitude given the cards you’ve been dealt’ I have to recall this positive statement now and then. It is in the fashion of being philosophical in nature. I have to keep this pertinent statement in mind when asking him questions that deal in a personal nature.
Seems like Spring at last however doesn’t really feel like it, being there are still patches of snow on the ground and it air feels still cold more so in doors than outside. Still viewing fabulous movies with depth the favorite kind. Then for a change viewing ” King of the Hill” That cartoon is funny and is filled with downright superb writing as each script brings wonder to the funny bone as the characters are so outlandish. Moving to the Midwest was a real type of adjustment: with dialects, spread out places, flat lands among other attributes. Although have attributed to mere survival is all a part of life. I personally enjoy the East Coast a great deal better for a number of reasons that would take a book to answer. It is reasonable to have some sort of vehicle in which to motivate. I noticed straight forward that very few persons walk in the Midwest. That was very difficult for me to recognize. These people even go a block in their cars instead to walking. That is hard to imagine for me as I have walked all my entire life, and really don’t mind it as I allow myself always enough time to get to appointments, work and such. People don’t carpool either for obvious reasons, neither do they hitchhike. The bus systems are ridiculous in smaller towns as are the taxicabs as well. I personally have never driven a motor vehicle and really don’t mind it. As the slogan goes” If you haven’t had it then you don’t miss it”. I call it a minor inconvenience and don’t let it get to me at all. However I have found that questions like, do you drive or oh you don’t drive? Seems to close minded individuals as these people seem to turn it to me and question as to why? In the first place, it is at my discretion as to if I want or if I don’t that is mainly and solely up to me and no one else. I personally love trains for a myriad of answers. Seems like if the majority are doing something and the minority aren’t then again the narrow minded people pick on the minority to see the fallacy of that particular situation and needlessly wrong and blame the minority, It will and has been going on and will continue to move forward for that’s the way it is: forget the rationally. Just keeping in mind a bit of normalcy as if it minds it matters.
Springtime, songbirds singing, cheers, hugs and love of this special season to all worldwide. A bit of normalcy, watching favorite movies with depth, endless walks, spring projects to pass the time in a constructive way, all in all while endlessly waiting for something. The tension rises as you can’t wait anymore however yet do for you haven’t a choice. The week goes as you call and get an automatic recording which makes more pressure, anxiety within the depths of your soul. Then going on a website putting personal information down as you wander why and if you should do this however again the choice isn’t yours. Week two and each time you look on the same website it is the same no change. Inwardly you want to scream to the heavens however outwardly you keep your composure. Surely there will be a sign next week. Yet the third week arrives with payments due, money owed, and again the same procedure. You start to pray and more that you previously did and start making a priority giving you some sort of satisfaction while telling yourself and calming yourself down at least inwardly. Watching more movies, having chats with some remarkable close friends manages to ease the pressure yet you know it won’t leave you until it comes. Then following week arrives and nothing. Looking at the whole picture you wonder why a person has to endure this misery. You say to yourself as the saying goes misery loves company and that doesn’t help one iota. You know that others are waiting for the same thing and are in the same boat as you: however you think that their boat is a cruise liner while yours is a rowboat and you are going down the river in choppy stormy waters. You look on different news sites leaving your mind to wander about other persons who are in desperate situations some by their own hand and others by circumstance just handed to them. You feel pity for some and want to change it and can’t. You think of a special prayer while that has a calming effect. While on to week five, you come to a Canadian news site. CBC and view that low income and senior citizens are receiving their refunds sooner only two weeks of waiting. The Canadian government realizes that individuals need their just shares within a reasonable period. You count the time as to when you turn it in and it being received and it becomes irritating. You check the site again and it has been received. What it takes this long five weeks. It now gives a date as to when it will arrive as it as been processed. A week more: What Go Figure yet you wait. Then week six comes and it arrives on Monday. You thank your lucky stars it wasn’t yet longer. Oh it was by design!
Tending to wake at abnormal hours is nothing new. Just telling the body that you’ve had enough sleep. Of course this is natural only depending on how deep a person sleeps as referring to REM. Which in my case is true. May have the tendency to sleep anywhere, anytime regardless of the hour. Naturally this takes into consideration the amount of tension you have. Or pressure which is the same thing. In my case I personally have a great deal. I too, put a huge deal of it on myself which sometimes I have to remind myself, sometimes to relax. However to do this I tend to give myself a bit of normalcy and do this my way. Watching movies not just any to past the time, but a type of relaxation: movies that have particular interest to me which are in the circle of a myriad. Being highly motivated with accomplishing anything in advance beforehand so I can go on to another thing. When stress gets just to much I tend to just walk and sometimes that relieves it. A time to get away a breath of fresh air taking small amounts as I go, breathing in and out. Being high strung is a tendency to myself. Things that are due to something are easier. However when it comes to something and involves individuals that are close to me. It is another story altogether. Being very sensitive in regard to individuals who I hold dear to my heart, I will defend them to the hilt. Being a Taurus I appear to be cold hearted or my way of thinking being aloof. Part of getting rid of tension is writing about the experiences and doing it in an intelligent audible venue. Without alluding to the particulars of the incident because that just makes my blood boil over, the more just the mere thought of it. Being suffice saying it involves my niece betraying my younger son in the course of confidentiality. I wouldn’t even mention anything about the incident or think that it didn’t matter however I only say this for the reason that it was wrong and she shouldn’t away with such behavior. I in turn don’t want to move in the direction of anymore animosity. My true intention is harmony. She will always be a niece to me.
Waking up in the morning at the tweeting sounds of a bird chirping is a pleasant way to start the day and furthermore to put icing on the cake to have the meditation sounds of a French Singer or Sinatra sounding out beautiful tones.
For as much evil in the world there is countless amount of good as well. Good has and will always outshine evil. When any newborn baby comes into this wonderful world, this phenomenon isn’t evil in the beginning. There is an intuitive attitude built in all of us a technical aspect which tell us the difference between right and wrong. There is an adage which is ‘whatever you do don’t get caught’. Unfortunately as the baby grows this slogan is drilled into them with a fine tooth comb. As this person grows in stature this human being sees and has all types of experiences. This human blindly goes through life and clearly accepts what is handed not knowing that their could change dramatically if for one instance there was a choice or a path to be taken. This person may have everything at their disposal. In some cases a high intellect is given to them, yet with that the path is going in circles, making errors time and again without any consequences. Their entire life is a standstill without rhyme or reason. This person is in one jam or another without accountability. Sadly there are countless individuals like these mentioned. They come from all walks of life, all economic statuses, Regardless of race, religion. They can be anyone.
The cold blink frigid times, who needs it! Nobody not a living soul. The extremes of anything is really too much to bear for anyone. Neither the extreme hot nor the extreme cold plays havoc on the human body and for that matter an animal or anybody. These days of below temperatures are horrendous. You go outside and take even a short walk no matter the length, you have to force yourself to keep going for if for one instance you stop for some unknown reason you would think you would freeze for it is that cold. Then you go inside and it takes a matter of more than a minute to warm your body up and the shock of it seems as if you are shivering which you are in actuality. Indeed it is no fun. My bones and muscles are playing havoc and sometimes are in pain and wake me up at night or having trouble going to sleep because of the pain or at this very moment a dull pain. This is exaggerated for one reason the deepest of the cold. Not ruling out arthritis by any means and putting some ice cold rub on the area which could be acute. Never want to start a habit of taking medicines even at this young at heart age. That theory is that you repair something and something again goes wrong in another place and then its on and on again. So why would I start something without finishing it. To me its like starting a box of something and eating just enough and then starting on another and eating your fill and again on and on. Why not start and finish the first one without starting in midstream. That is more of a logical outcome. Never say that stress may cause the pain. For the simply answer that you can relieve stress by reading a favored book, watch some choice movies, which are many and very selective. Reading” James Stewart by Marc Eliot a bio.”Vincent” a choice movie with Bill Murray is excellent: anything with Bill Murray is worth anyone’s time. Taking a walk or occupying your time with enjoying activities is my answer. Being around certain people you want to be instead of whether you have to be. No one is obligated to you but yourself, just answer to yourself and of course to your creator. Have a conscience an intuition then of course only follow that. Be your own leader. Never let another be in control. Others may guide or advise you, only you will make decisions then answer for them. Now its time to edit! Good with Philosophy too! Don’t know your talents till the time arises. Sometimes it’s natural and you surprise yourself.