” Keeping Calm”

November 25, 2015

So much to do and yet seems so little time. Trying to use the moments left here wisely. Spending some actual moments with a very close friend keeping calm while inside myself is churning with nerves of steel. There are a number of movies on the horizon which I am with eager anticipation! Trying my best to rid any unnecessary expense. Got another email address and transferred all the harmony emails to google actually forwarded them to the google email and then ask my niece Liz and nephew David to aid me. They were kind enough to give mm a link so I may keep all of my blogs, which are very important to me and they are numerous. Love doing it for the simple reason that it gives a serene feeling and also a bit of learning to add to my knowledge.
My main concern is my son Andre and his health and overall well being. He is very hard working, independent thinker, creative. Working overnight still a manager at a local restaurant. He is working on a book which he originally had as a screenplay. Also he is working on the sequel which is ” Paradise Epilogue”
Actually this blog are bits and pieces of things that are wrapped up tightly in my brain just trying to escape without reason and the thoughts are showing masterly on this page.
Today is the 25th and in a month is Christmas then five more days I will leave for Atlanta. Time is flying so it is apparent that I get everything done beforehand. When I put thoughts into words it seems mind blogging however it really isn’t as I am extremely organized which comes easy for me. The trick is to not get flustered however that is most difficult for me because I am high strung so have to constantly fight against it as most people know that I am a fighter but little do they know that it started on the day of my birth. So now the secret is out!

” Alone Again Naturally”

November 8, 2015

Alone Again Naturally is a well known melodic tune with in depth lyrics by Gilbert O’Sullivan. Thought this was appropriate to my feelings momentarily. Viewed recently a fantastic beautiful in everyway imaginable a movie called “Age of Adeline” written with worthy wonderful meaningful measure, great acting also. Spending timeless moments with my great close friend which is sensational. Having tremendous lifelong friends makes everything worthwhile. That is truly the secret of happiness especially at anytime of existence at whichever age. Persons who can be in your corner is exceptional. Are able to give advice when needed and just be there for moral support is a godsend. Hopefully or could be said is a third a charm. Don’t want to say anything now in hopes that it all will turn out well. Always providing there is a Murphy’s Law! When planning anything, just be aware of that. Moving to Atlanta soon. Went to Doctor Shapiro just about a week ago and said I needed another doctor. He said that he went to Emory University and that made me feel good. So that is well taken with utmost care. Then went to the management and she is going to let me out of the lease of course it stands to reason, I pay November then December and she will let me out in January. Lots of items I have to deal with, though these two were most important. I can deal with pressure if things are planned out in advance.
Still wondering where my son Sweet Andre will go. He has a publisher in Rochester, N.Y. as yet it isn’t a concrete decision. Hoping he will be alright and I trust he will be, yet have mentioned it in passing yet don’t want to put anymore pressure on him as he has enough at the moment. Is still working an overnight shift at a restaurant nearby. Still taking medicine and he’s feeling ok sometimes fine so that is great. Knows when the time is up so that’s all that matters. Trying to stay calm myself have to do a zillion things but the time is right and sometimes it is called the waiting game.
Really looking forward to this experience for adventure however all my ducks have to be in a row to quote a great wonderful Doctor Michael B. Shapiro, actually that is a well known expression.

” Rhetoric”

October 3, 2015

It is now eight minutes past one in the morning a brand new day is on the horizon. There is rhetoric from all of the populous when tragedy occurs when it being on a local, national or scale. People become frustrated with situations that for some reason are uncontrollable yet if people used logic it could become controlled. If incidents are redundant then individuals ossify at the events happening. There are ways of being part of a solution instead of being part of a continuing problem.
Let’s take for instance, homelessness, Guns, drinking while driving. These are all hot button issues. These can or will not be solved overnight. It takes logic. It takes caring not necessarily highly educated people. These subjects are very complicated, takes tenacity.
Of all the Presidents who in recent years who have been elected can’t solve the problem of guns in this country. The lobby the NRA are powerful. This organization gives tons of money to the political campaigns every four years. Also gives money for state campaigns. The NRA should works with Congress both the Senate and the House to pass a comprehensive bill that will be agreeable to all concerned, including not taking their right to bear arms which is the 2ND Amendment. I am surely confident that the NRA are highly intelligent well serving upstanding individuals that have the protection of the country at heart. Surely this body could come to a compromise in reference to this.
Now to the homelessness issue. Everyday Americans who could more than likely be in that situation. So it involves mental issues too for a great many persons who are homeless. There should be many more places in caring for the mentally ill. That has to do with the medical facilities which are hardly available which is very sad.
Now for drunk driving which is tragically sad and happened more and more all the time. In some state there is a beer lobby which funds the states which contribute to this and again on a state by state issue which involves the whole country there could be a compromise.
Now for a medical issue, persons who are living with physical illness should have medicines available to them without added inconveniences. It shouldn’t be harder for people to obtain and making life more difficult where it is quite difficult in the beginning. People should take into consideration their plight. Afterall everyone has a plight from their own beginning. Persons could have compassion for others. Not to have symphony yet have empathy for others. Have understanding worse yet to feel sorry for others. If a person dislikes something or someone it is their choice. However before they come to that conclusion, it is an good idea to understand then it is their right to act in a thoughtful matter. Show respect for others. Respect is earned and having earned that it is rightfully theirs and then persons deserve it. As a slogan goes, a person gets what they deserve!

” Wonderment”

September 25, 2015

Aside from favorite movies which are too numerous to mention leaves a sense of mere enjoyment. Then there is the harmony of music which everyone is aware of certain genres. A friend indeed are books. A discovery of wonderment that you can hold in your hands and just open and close at your will yet is always there. Unfortunately there are people who haven’t had the opportunity to read anything. Some have never been taught, and that is spread through generations. It is their private secret. Others because of economic status haven’t been able to afford books even if they had the desire to read. Still others because of war haven’t had this rare choice.
My list of books are a myriad of favorites. Now my choice is National Geographic magazines and readers digest. Love wrapping my thoughts around news articles. Particularly news for the independent, the guardian, the voice of Russia which are new discoveries of knowledge. Getting different points of view. Occasionally the news from the three network sites along with fox and cnn are becoming redundant and giving the US points of view seem not whole enough so my son Andre has introduced me to another way of knowledge a better way.
Speaking of Andre. He is nearly finished editing ” Paradise Epilogue’ which deals which the subject of Heaven. It is the sequel to the e- book on Amazon. The publisher can have the book in print. Was looking on google today about that very thing. There is a screenplay ” Squatters” which Andre wants to make it into a novel. That I’ve read and think is sensational.
My enjoyment of expressing private thoughts in these many blogs are endless. I’ve made a couple of errors though still hope that people will get pleasure out of reading them, as I have creating them.

” The Lobbies”

September 23, 2015

Soon enough as a matter of a few hours it will be the autumn equinox where both day and night are of equal value. The start of the season of autumn is a welcome change and I for one are welcoming this with open arms. Hopefully the sinuses won’t be as bad just tolerable. The lobbies are brought about with sometime vengeance, the big money operators in order for bills to be passes of vetoed are a crying shame. Welcome to American politics which as the true expression makes strange bedfellows.
Let’s focus on two lobbies in particular the beer lobby and the tobacco lobby. The first being in the state of Wisconsin and the second being the state of North Carolina. This tobacco state is bold enough to have major cities named after a type of cigarettes. Winston Salem and Raleigh! Everyone is aware of the lawsuits brought against these companies for misrepresenting products. Needless to say the ailments caused by these however the choices of humans are on their own shoulders.
Now for the second culprit which if were used properly wouldn’t be near to a huge problem. Those who are familiar with Americas Dairy Land has the worse record in the field of driving under the influence, while its become sad only to say a joke as to the ultimate number of offenses. It continues to rise in large part of the beer lobby. Climate change is man made. The pollution from electric plants, people smoking cigars, cigarettes as the smoke is circling the sky, the clouds, the atmosphere, the stratosphere is horrific.
Let’s not question the oceans which are littered with refuse in the five of seven oceans if not all the seven of them. Which have been and will continue to be not a part of the solution.
Speaking of littering the many people who see nothing wrong with dropping trash on the ground where in arms throw there is a refuse container.
Wouldn’t it be grand for just one person to care enough for the environment and have others to follow. Not everything has to be political.

” A Controversy”

September 14, 2015

What better way to try to solve something than go right to the point of it! Yesterday I blogged at an ungodly time sinuses were a bother and that’s nothing new at this time of year. Had a blog that was very intricate though perhaps at that time I made it so! You might say I was the culprit. Tried to connect with a social media several times at it was a no go. So after I finish this one maybe it will go absolutely no promises.
This controversy is two words that bring havoc all the time. It shouldn’t be that way yet it is. And whatsmore the media makes it worse. Speaking of Church and State. When a recent person refused to do her job she through religion into the mix. Got attention. The media should stop making stupid people famous. That slogan isn’t original. Got that from a quote from Janis Ian who posted it on this social media. Every state in this country has local stations these aren’t cable. Late at night or very early in the morning when people are sleeping there are at least seven stations that broadcast religion. Only to get money that is very wrong! When someone who needs food people are advised to go to churches and get it then the churches tell their reasons and the whys and wherefores of life. Now let’s up something straight. These churches are there and exist because of the people and the churches go out to help people yet sometimes they go about it the wrong way. When a person is in need of vital needs it is up to that organization to help them without a motive. So let me cease for now. Got my thoughts across and that’s what matters!

” La Dolce Vita: One Day”

September 13, 2015

A third time better again be a charm! Viewed a movie recently ” Far From The Madding Crowd” Wonderful in every way. Then was fortunate to see another great mesmerizing movie “Bloodline” Have to say at this point my sinuses are acting up a little again so better hurry! Keep in contact grateful for David’s side of the family! Am in contact with all of them: happily Ian and Andre’s Dad’s Mom is now 90 plus and viewed several photos of her and her daughter Barbara. Noticed Ian has gotten a visa for December to go to Pyongyang the capital of North Korea. Don’t know whether family will go however think they will. While on the Guardian saw some fabulous photos of architectural tour through the ages. Wanted to give blood and googled it and you had to weigh no more or no lessthan 110 pounds. Reason being donors who weigh less than 110 pounds may not tolerate the removal of required volume of blood as those who weighed more than 110 pounds. That is logical. Years ago I wanted to do that however never knew the reason for it. It is more reasonable. One question has always baffled me. When you asked someone about something you not wanting yet you are needing it. Some persons state some very personal statements. A relative just had the gall to do this! These people are complacent and apathetic. At a point these persons could be both. It is very aggravating annoying to say the least! So believe me I drafted this many times and actually condensed it!

” Bits Here Pieces There”

August 2, 2015

Finally cooler days are in store in the next couple of days which are in the form of storms. This is a pleasant change from the humdrum days past. Always good for changing the scenery! This month will be the tenth year I have been scripting thoughts in form of blogs. Recalling in August in 2005 was five days of very heavy rain. So had and took the opportunity to put thoughts and constructive as it was coming straight out of my brain without any preparation. Seemed and therefore seems easier this way. Not many changes just to the point. Just taped the draft slightly as my son showed me how to do that so that it wouldn’t disappear as previously. As I begin this blog I feel trapped because of my inability to drive a car. I have simply walked everywhere which seems fine to my standards. I feel stressed because of lack of money all the time. Always trying and succeeding to keep my head above water which I say nightly prayers which is a ritual each night. In fact all my adult life I have been able to manage money having the fact that it is vital to life and the least I have the better I am with it. Couldn’t imagine having a lot of it really wouldn’t know what to do with it and besides it has never been in the cards. So why start at this stage of life. I really worry about my son’s health and wanting somehow to have his kidneys better. Or have a kidney transplant for him. One of my many observations is when I ask someone a question they devise some many unnecessary questions and bombard me with endless why this and why that which has nothing to do with the initial question. And what is very nerve racking is their judging attitude. Another saga is in general sense people just love to hear their own voices as these individuals just ramble on without taking a breath. I never like drama either so when I begin to feel comfortable with someone which I only have a few; I find opening up with someone is difficult. I am in some respects a clam hard to crack: the less comfortable or uneasy I feel the tighter I get. I feel that once I open up then it is better to correspond and I am more worried about a reaction from others. Although the slogan is ” for every action there is a reaction. I also feel that my faith is very important to me although I respect others of being different venues. I just feel what is important to myself. As my son works overnight last night was the only night I could actually sleep and could sleep soundly. Normally I don’t. Am a newshound and wanting and having to know what is going on worldwide mainly than locally. Have been looking for other apartments other places too. Somewhere that is cheaper and been online to see where these places are. Seems the southern part of the US is cheaper, simply for the lower standard of living. Have been there never want to go backward only forward. Would love to go to a city which has trains and a better type of transportation, much easier to motivate and not so spread out. Not really asking for much. Never required much either. If others who are close to me are happy than I am too. If not well I’m not. Have always been motivated by others. Thought of others first then myself. My Social Security check stays the same however rent and utilities continue and will continue to rise. This is just the basic necessities nothing more.
My son has medicine to get which is vital to his health. Has doctor appointments which aren’t covered because he is working a full time job. This state doesn’t have federal funds like most normally. The EBT card was revoked because again my son is working a full time job. I’m not eligible for it because I will share the food with him as he did with me in the past. So the woman said ” Go to a food bank” Treating me like I was homeless! So both of us get food when we can. He brings it home from work and I get what we both need when I get paid. Its called survival. We don’t live to eat: we eat to live!
This will be my only blog this month as will probably have to downsize big time: which I truly hope isn’t the case. Aussi comme si comme ca!!!!


July 26, 2015

While going up the street near my apartment I happen to come across this fine feathered friend who gently prances softly on the hard pavement not barely lifting up his thin brightly orange feet. Just glides along smoothly. His color is quite unusual as being dark grey on his head as his wings are magnificent with bright white designs. He spreads his wings and he is off not even to have a glance at the surface below. He is unusual as he flies not in flight as other birds seems to do. This creature isn’t far from the ground at all: in fact he is eye level to myself. I would think that this particular species of bird is a pigeon however not the size as most pigeons which are near the lakes or the oceans. Those seem far larger. This pigeon seems to have lost weight and one day it was in the road and I had hoped it wouldn’t be hit by these fast going cars which travel at mock speed not watching for those in the way. So each day in the early morning as the sun has already arose I see this pigeon just coming and of course it stops and I look in amazement. He seems not to be hesitant as I speak softly as he listens. He has a calming effect on me. As I go on my way toward the corner and turn I am bombarded with refuse along the path. People have an apathy ignorance on the verge of sloth. Each time I see refuse on the ground it is horrid. There are refuse cans in eyes view yet people just won’t use them. There should be a forced fine for litter. It has gotten out of hand. In fact when I take my trash to the dumpster I walk to the closest entrance and I pick up a diet mountain dew empty can and take it with me. It is on my way and it is always in the same place on top of where the mail is delivered to the apartments. I have pick it up countless times I have lost count yet can’t just leave it stay. If I do it bothers me. There have been beautiful clouds today and I see them separate and have the patience to watch them close and come together as the bright blue sky disappears away from the clouds. What a magnificent sight. Could watch clouds endlessly. Never tire of them especially as these become darker and there is a grayish tint to them. It again leaves a serene feeling.

” Interlocking Interlude”

July 20, 2015

A magical yet in my case a third time which better be a charm. Usually I blog at night however this time it is happening in the morning which I would think that at anytime would be good while the oven is hot to strike a mood of progressive constructive dialogue. Years ago my creative son, Andre wrote a play in a notebook. It hasn’t been published yet as ” Perdition’s Epilogue” Book One is on amazon. He is editing the sequel and writing another book “Anytown” This play is so original and timeless, actually up to date even in todays standards. The characters jump out from the page as being lifelike. These individuals are in real life sometimes threatening circumstances: as their life up to this point is very stressful. These characters are as follows: Zen who is in the mainstream is very intellectual, dresses conservatively has liberal ideas: John who is Zen’s childhood friend is very idealistic has some heated although friendly debates with Zen. There are John’s parents who are always self judging and putting John down. There is Nicole who is apprehensive of all her friends because of being abused by her parents. Katrina who is somewhat wayward, young fifteen years of age. So Zen and John try to mentor her which is to no avail however both of them are credited for their efforts. These are the main characters and the secondary characters are a couple of cops who are constantly harassing these kids and making a game of it. Although the kids are far more intelligent and see right through the shananigans. Then there is Skeet who is in his mid-forties who is appears to be in and out of the saga. Has a reputation of being a recluse and very hard get along with everybody concerned and therefore clashes with all the personalities. Doesn’t have any respect for himself and the kids dislike Skeet intensively however never verbly utter any words such as those. Undoubtingly there are harrowing situations in the middle of this play yet each character has a surprising happy ending with exception of Nicole who turns up in a very sad way!
Hopefully at some point this notably inventive play will be published so the world may appreciate the intentions of natural true talent


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