Archive for March, 2015

“A Bit Of Normalcy” Part Three

March 29, 2015

Seems like Spring at last however doesn’t really feel like it, being there are still patches of snow on the ground and it air feels still cold more so in doors than outside. Still viewing fabulous movies with depth the favorite kind. Then for a change viewing ” King of the Hill” That cartoon is funny and is filled with downright superb writing as each script brings wonder to the funny bone as the characters are so outlandish. Moving to the Midwest was a real type of adjustment: with dialects, spread out places, flat lands among other attributes. Although have attributed to mere survival is all a part of life. I personally enjoy the East Coast a great deal better for a number of reasons that would take a book to answer. It is reasonable to have some sort of vehicle in which to motivate. I noticed straight forward that very few persons walk in the Midwest. That was very difficult for me to recognize. These people even go a block in their cars instead to walking. That is hard to imagine for me as I have walked all my entire life, and really don’t mind it as I allow myself always enough time to get to appointments, work and such. People don’t carpool either for obvious reasons, neither do they hitchhike. The bus systems are ridiculous in smaller towns as are the taxicabs as well. I personally have never driven a motor vehicle and really don’t mind it. As the slogan goes” If you haven’t had it then you don’t miss it”. I call it a minor inconvenience and don’t let it get to me at all. However I have found that questions like, do you drive or oh you don’t drive? Seems to close minded individuals as these people seem to turn it to me and question as to why? In the first place, it is at my discretion as to if I want or if I don’t that is mainly and solely up to me and no one else. I personally love trains for a myriad of answers. Seems like if the majority are doing something and the minority aren’t then again the narrow minded people pick on the minority to see the fallacy of that particular situation and needlessly wrong and blame the minority, It will and has been going on and will continue to move forward for that’s the way it is: forget the rationally. Just keeping in mind a bit of normalcy as if it minds it matters.

” A Bit Of Normalcy” Part Two

March 21, 2015

Springtime, songbirds singing, cheers, hugs and love of this special season to all worldwide. A bit of normalcy, watching favorite movies with depth, endless walks, spring projects to pass the time in a constructive way, all in all while endlessly waiting for something. The tension rises as you can’t wait anymore however yet do for you haven’t a choice. The week goes as you call and get an automatic recording which makes more pressure, anxiety within the depths of your soul. Then going on a website putting personal information down as you wander why and if you should do this however again the choice isn’t yours. Week two and each time you look on the same website it is the same no change. Inwardly you want to scream to the heavens however outwardly you keep your composure. Surely there will be a sign next week. Yet the third week arrives with payments due, money owed, and again the same procedure. You start to pray and more that you previously did and start making a priority giving you some sort of satisfaction while telling yourself and calming yourself down at least inwardly. Watching more movies, having chats with some remarkable close friends manages to ease the pressure yet you know it won’t leave you until it comes. Then following week arrives and nothing. Looking at the whole picture you wonder why a person has to endure this misery. You say to yourself as the saying goes misery loves company and that doesn’t help one iota. You know that others are waiting for the same thing and are in the same boat as you: however you think that their boat is a cruise liner while yours is a rowboat and you are going down the river in choppy stormy waters. You look on different news sites leaving your mind to wander about other persons who are in desperate situations some by their own hand and others by circumstance just handed to them. You feel pity for some and want to change it and can’t. You think of a special prayer while that has a calming effect. While on to week five, you come to a Canadian news site. CBC and view that low income and senior citizens are receiving their refunds sooner only two weeks of waiting. The Canadian government realizes that individuals need their just shares within a reasonable period. You count the time as to when you turn it in and it being received and it becomes irritating. You check the site again and it has been received. What it takes this long five weeks. It now gives a date as to when it will arrive as it as been processed. A week more: What Go Figure yet you wait. Then week six comes and it arrives on Monday. You thank your lucky stars it wasn’t yet longer. Oh it was by design!

” A Bit Of Normalcy” Part One

March 14, 2015

Tending to wake at abnormal hours is nothing new. Just telling the body that you’ve had enough sleep. Of course this is natural only depending on how deep a person sleeps as referring to REM. Which in my case is true. May have the tendency to sleep anywhere, anytime regardless of the hour. Naturally this takes into consideration the amount of tension you have. Or pressure which is the same thing. In my case I personally have a great deal. I too, put a huge deal of it on myself which sometimes I have to remind myself, sometimes to relax. However to do this I tend to give myself a bit of normalcy and do this my way. Watching movies not just any to past the time, but a type of relaxation: movies that have particular interest to me which are in the circle of a myriad. Being highly motivated with accomplishing anything in advance beforehand so I can go on to another thing. When stress gets just to much I tend to just walk and sometimes that relieves it. A time to get away a breath of fresh air taking small amounts as I go, breathing in and out. Being high strung is a tendency to myself. Things that are due to something are easier. However when it comes to something and involves individuals that are close to me. It is another story altogether. Being very sensitive in regard to individuals who I hold dear to my heart, I will defend them to the hilt. Being a Taurus I appear to be cold hearted or my way of thinking being aloof. Part of getting rid of tension is writing about the experiences and doing it in an intelligent audible venue. Without alluding to the particulars of the incident because that just makes my blood boil over, the more just the mere thought of it. Being suffice saying it involves my niece betraying my younger son in the course of confidentiality. I wouldn’t even mention anything about the incident or think that it didn’t matter however I only say this for the reason that it was wrong and she shouldn’t away with such behavior. I in turn don’t want to move in the direction of anymore animosity. My true intention is harmony. She will always be a niece to me.