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A Contrarian

September 30, 2017

As others referred to the late and great Jimmy Breslin as a contrarian secretly I am the same way in doing what my heart tells me regardless of how others view me. I mainly have to answer to myself and no one else.  I’ve received a lot of opposition in the past and still do however again what I think matters. What is more I think things out methodically and logically. This is throughout my entire life as if to plan every move I make. It’s worked for me and I’ve lived a three fourths of a century so I must be doing something right. I’ve always had the tendency to think of others first before myself which most of the time serves me correctly.  I naturally get on others nerves though I’ve not had the intention, yet if it would be known precisely. On the subject of asking questions to others it never is one question. It’s a series of questions one after another because my mind is in quick concession.  In addition I find the more comfortable I’m with someone and it works both ways: only then I open up with expressive thoughts. If a person asks me a question one after another and I don’t really know them I become very quiet to a point of silence. That also goes for others whom I known and don’t like though I don’t say it in speaking terms though they know it without a doubt. I don’t hurt others feelings as to saying terms in a jokingly way, yet others have done that to me and I’ve outwardly ignored them,  yet inwardly the comments have hurt and sometimes I feel that it doesn’t matter because they don’t know any better. I just chalk it up to ignorance. Then gradually shy myself away without them knowing why though that is the real reason. My mind is like a computer. It stores a lifetime of comments in a memory bank.

“Getting Down To Brass Tax”

November 1, 2010

As one commenses this topic one recalls the day in which one derived this particular title. It began as an ordinary day as if for any other. When all of a sudden on was taking a daily stroll the wind was unusually strong. There were tree branches scattered about the roadway and the sidewalks as far as the eye could see. There was an unusual sight a tree leaning over slightly imitating the leaning tower of Pisa. The air was very warm and along the way one had to cling on to either a gate or stop and rest for the wind was strongly blowing at such a high degree one was about to topple over without warning. Came back and heard on wls that there was indeed a drastic drop in air pressure. This occurence hadn’t happen in seventy years. This lasted at least thirty six hours. There were very dark storm clouds visable too. While this was occurring one had a very wonderful, endearing and once in a lifetime conversation with one’s brother. Without saying the conversation in its entirety, one will just say the essence of it. There were certain questions about a certain subject that concerned myself and one wanted to know precisely the answers. Was satisfied in getting down to brass tax. Tried to offer one’s assistance in the matter, yet that will come at a later date. However presently am set as ease with this initial dialogue. Perhaps at some future date another encounter will be forthcoming. For now all seems to be on an even keel. Silence is never the answer.